We each inhabit a universe of our own making. We breathe, move and have our being in that universe, alone. No one other than the ‘me’ we recognize as our self inhabits the world of which we sleep, eat, drink, stir around and communicate. Although our delegated personal universe is integrated and permeated with other reflective essences (people, places, things, events) of life, we are basically resounding and rebounding in our very own prefabricated world. It is in that indelibly imprinted sacred existence; our own world of feelings, saturated from within our singular level of consciousness, that we exist primarily without exception. Our feelings, expressed and concealed emotions, form this sanctified universe.

From this matrix of personalized creative endeavors, we live, love, laugh, luxuriate and languish in our day to day dramas. No one other than our self is privy to the personal experience of our inner universe of cognitive interpretation; one may even refer to it as the cherished psyche’s evaluation of occurrences. It is here in this particular boxing ring where our opponents come to bout. Favorable or unfavorable in outcome makes no difference.

We enjoy the spectatorship involved in the playing out of the various rounds of sparring conflict until we derive from or arrive at some point of consolable, agreeable and/or acceptable resolution.Our infrared colorful mind creates the experience of which, we first resist, in order for relationship to exist, as a possible experience. As contrary as this bit of esoteric information may sound, it is none the less true. Epistemologically, the so called mind’s creative world of various involvements includes the parameters of the entire galaxy. Nothing is exempt. Nothing is left out. All-everything that exists-formulates the emotional stew. How could it be, otherwise?

Our predisposed psyche (meticulously unrestrained unconscious realm of integrated association) recognizes, accepts or rejects, and assumes what it will, how it will, and when it will. Our personal relationships, carried out through distinctions, preferences and repulsions are generated upon the self-same latent analysis, filtered through and between our feelings, along with the interpretative dormant value associated, along with the stars, the song playing on the radio, a past scent remembered, our last meal and the kind of shoes we choose to wear on any given day. In other words, everything plays a part in the divinely orchestrated play.

In the world of our creatively crafted inhabitance, we selectively attract what and who will or will not inhabit our space. Though most of our decisions are completely generated from the unconscious realm, we none the less invite participants into our world for further evaluation and interaction. In other words, the men and woman we select to pepper our lives have everything to do with our personal evolution, and we, theirs. We do not have to be conscious of the purpose of their involvement, we merely respect the idea that they would not be in our faces IF we did not want and need their vital participation.It is solely in ignorance when and if we claim to 'know' why we are involved with another person.

When we quickly and inaccurately determine that we “know” this or that, about a particular person’s involvement or a participation in a specific relationship, (with us) that’s not necessarily the case. Which brings us to another point of occult discussion; this particular world of feelings, we inhabit completely and dramatically, derives its substance from consciousness. Consciousness, which elaborates the involvement (almost to the point of exaggeration) in order to attach itself to a feeling (undercurrent of suppressed emotions) which are under observation in the mal-aligned interpretation operates independently of solicited outcomes.

Let me clarify further: when we say ‘I know’ something, we fall a little short; except in the fact, we can only ‘know’ (perceive), be conscious of, nothing but our own feelings in the matter. And, they are persuasively distorted. Be they colored or profusely embellished, our personal feelings represent something other than the actual event, person or involvement, simply because we think about, gauge, measure, compare, and analyze it, in order to conclude or determine how it benefits or hurts us in some way.

In other words, we are doing nothing but presenting to ourselves various relationships, circumstances and scenarios so that we may choose to act out (develop) characteristics needful in ourselves, which have previously remained undeveloped. In order to evolve, since we all must extend our curiosity on some level, we choose to “work out our own salvation through fear and trembling.” Bottom line: our interacting ‘other selves’ are based upon previous demonstrable alternatives, we unconsciously select to bring us to the forefront of introduction. Short order version: we need whatever and whoever is facing us at the moment for reasons beyond our present level of comprehension.

Our level of comprehension certainly varies from person to person depending upon the background of experiences. For example, if we were to approach our experiences as a physicist in his investigation of physical phenoemena, we would not only inquire into the possible verifiable action of events, but more importantly search for the cause of the specific relative occurrences by the obvious actions one event has had upon another. (What patterns and repetitive threads led to and ties the unit to together?)

He would approach the investigation by either one or two ways; applying the action (relationship) as part of a larger system usually referred to as 'laws' or by observing the decomposition (break down or break-up) involved in the termination of the involvement into smaller and smaller molecular forms of supposed motion, determined by its polar opposite migration. One's (DNA) acting as the preverbal pea under the twenty mattresses, which only the 'real princess would detect.

I am certain; no one would approach the 'other selves' in their lives in such a fastidious manner in order to follow the cause of events back to the original source of the intricately layered complex reasons for the attraction even IF it were possible to do so. But should one follow the multi-faceted turbulent trail, like the trained physicist, in the final analysis of his committed observation, he would ineveitably discover that sensation (feelings) of the observed state resides as the culprit, not the relationship itself.

Though to a physicist, the source of voluntary or involuntary motion (relationship) is nothing more or less than a mathematical symbol which definitvely acts a depositor of feelings. It's a matter of recognizing, adapting to, organizing and accepting innate feelings as symbolic representations of perfect portals of understanding, instead of, as barometers of either defeat or success. In this case, the esoteric art and science of astrology, as well as, numerology and other esoteric informative data could bring added insight into the complicated but confusing scenario.

Our personal emotional universes are contrived patterns of diverse relationships. The interworking of these specific patterns in relationships, in combination with those particular patterns, operate as the indispensable cycles that steadfastly occur without relent. Without understanding, the seasons in our lives emotionally, we will not be able to dress appropriately and because of it our relationships will carry the grunt and the brunt.